Life Balance in 2010

The start of a New Year. 2010 is here.



It had been a meaningful end to 2009 and beginning of 2010 for me. I had managed to spend my holiday break with loved ones, my children and siblings. It was blissful to find myself amongst the companion of my sons, siblings and parents. I couldn't imagine life without them in my life, the joy and laughter and at times the learned agony that they may bring. It brings out the meaning and value of a family. I hope my children will be able to have this feeling of love and loyalty of what a family is one day.

New Year also means the starting of school for my kids. Made me realise how fast they have grown from a baby i used to hold in my palm and arm, now grown to a boy whom I can talk and discuss things with. Sooner or later they will be talking to me about adolescent issues... Hence I have decided to learn to accord my eldest son some level of trust. I bought him a mobile phone with a supplementary line. Let see if he is responsible enough with the trust I have granted him.

I also had my struggle with smoking in late 2009. I had been a smoker again after one and half years quitting. So, this New Year 2010, I have quit once again. Once an addict, will always be an addict. It is this evil that is intruiging to fathom. How something so disgusting yet so wanting.

Nonetheless, the Bugis blood runs thick in me. Bugis are well known fighters originating from the Sulawesi Island of Indonesia. Feared and respected. Some of them have made themselves Kings in parts of Tanah Melayu (Modern days known as Malaysia). Hence I will battle and combat against this evil called "Nicotine" until a day I will find closure, psyhcologically or physically. Whichever gets me first. But again... I wouldn't want to die trying.

2010 has also gave me this urge to make myself independant of stipendiary earnings. I feel it is time to make my first million (in current inflationary terms, doesn't worth much), yet still my first millions to be able to not let myself be enslaved for corporations, partnerships or agencies but only for my own. I am finding ways, and working towards that independence and freedom from control. Being able to be grateful to Allah, provide the very best for my children, family, religion, race and country. At the sametime lavish myself with my dreams, travel the world to places I have never been and seen. Learning cultures, phenomenal panoramic views, diversity that i could appreciate and thank Allah for his blessings to life and make me closer to Him. I need that.... I need that balance in life.